GOING CRAZY??

Well, today was a horrible day. It started off at 9 am today when I went to court to meet the judge in my divorce. It was about a 3 minute meeting where nothing happened except for me receiving a new court date for 2 March. 2 MARCH!! That's over a month away. So here I am just waiting to see when it will be final. I was hoping it wouldn't drag out this long, but that's life. Also, my best friend Krista is getting divorced. Another thing I found out this morning. It seems her husband of approx 10 yrs decided he didn't love her anymore. She then looked at his email and saw that he had been emailing other women looking to cheat if he hasn't already. That was deja vu for me as that exact thing had been happening to me for the past 2 years! What is it with men!! I know there are good ones out there, but someone please show me where they are. I really didn't think my own fairy tale of lasting love and a wonderful family was too much to ask, but apparently it is. Why do people have to be so cruel and thoughtless, especially to those they claim to love so dearly. I don't think I will ever understand it and my idea of NEVER getting deeply involved with another man is affirmed with Krista getting divorced. Well, I guess that's enough bitching for now, I just had to get that off my chest. I really feel as though I am building up a lot of anger towards men and people in general and it's probably not a good thing. I was offered some free counseling by my case worker after the incident with Juan, and I'm thinking I might need a couple of sessions. I thought I could handle it all on my own, but things just keep going the opposite direction that I need them to and I don't want to become a bitter, depressed person. I try and think of all the blessings in my life like family and Dominik, but those things have been getting overshadowed a lot by all this legal bullcrap and my continuing struggle to lose the weight I put on over the last 6 months due to my relationship that I was in. If anyone reading this pray, please say one for me to get through all this without losing my sanity.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER

Well today is my younger bro's birthday, except he's not that young anymore. It seems like he should still be in highschool, but he's been past that stage of life for years now. Maybe I think of him at that age still because he doesn't look like he has aged much since then. That's one good thing about our family is we keep our youth for awhile and we look younger than we are. Anyhow Drew, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I wish we could all be there to celebrate with you but know we are thinking about you today. I hope you have a wonderful birthday and don't have to work too hard. I also hope your new job is going well and that Alicia and Korven are doing great. You take care and don't eat too much cake! Love ya.

Here it is!!

Here it is, my new blog. I've uploaded some Christmas pics for your enjoyment! Dominik has finally entered the terrible 2's and it's just 1 1/2 months early. I have banned him from eating out since he throws some sort of fit everytime for one reason or another. He also has a thing with NEEDING to push the cart around if we go to a store. If he can't do it, it just kills him and he gets an attitude. Oh well, I guess that stuff isn't too bad as he's still sweet most of the time.

I started another college class today, Food and Culture. It looks interesting and goes over foods in different cultures and how one type of meat can be taboo in one country, yet popular in another. I think this should be a relatively easy course to complete and it earns me a free paycheck from the Vet's Administration, so why not.

Anywho, check this blog from now on as the other one is done and over with. Hope all of you are having a great start to 2009!