Monday, March 30, 2009

I'm So Excited!!

Well, I bet you are all wondering why I'm so excited. It's because on Wed, April 1st I get to move into my own place, and Dominik too of course. We are renting a big 2 bedroom, 2 bath house with custom cabinets and closets, all appliances, garage, and gas fireplace. It's really beautiful inside and only $600 per month. My favorite part is the 2 closets in my bedroom, one with a built in girlie vanity. Any of you are welcome to visit anytime for a tour. The downside is I have to pay for water and stuff, but hopefully it won't be too costly with just the two of us there. Also, Dom will start going to daycare full time but I think it will be good for him. He always has fun now with the other little boys and maybe it will help him with his speech. I applied for some free daycare money through a National Guard program so I should know if I qualify within the next week or two. Let's hope I do so I'm not completely broke each month! I guess that's all my big news for now. Dominik is doing great and is as sweet as always. I will get some pics posted of the new place soon so you can all be jealous. haha, just kidding.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

SNEAKY DOM

So today Dominik cracked me up and once again showed me how smart he is. For breakfast I gave him some oatmeal and a mandarin orange which he normally loves, but for some reason he didn't want it this morning. Later in the morning he found a little bag of cookies that he kept bringing me to open. I kept telling him he needs to eat his orange first instead of so much junk food. Well he ate 1 slice and then the bowl and the rest of the orange disappeared. He again brought me the cookies as if to say he ate all of his orange. Well I found the bowl of oranges sitting behind the chair "hiding." I told him again to eat them so he took the bowl and disappeared for a minute. He again came back empty handed but still wanting his cookies. I asked him what he did with the orange and only got a look of innocence. I went down stairs into the kitchen and found the orange.



My sneaky little boy thought he could make his orange go away by putting it down the garbage disposal. I have to hand it to him though, he did a good job throwing each piece into the sink and then strategically placed the bowl next to the sink. Nice try angel!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I'M FREE!!

So this morning I had my final session of divorce court. Juan failed to show up 3 times so the judge granted me my divorce and full custody of Dominik. I'm so thankful that I can raise my son to be a respectful, loving, kind human being who can contribute to society in a positive manner. I really feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted off of me now that that's over. The assault trial is still in the future, but as long as Juan is behind bars, I feel safe. I'm so thankful to all of you who helped me through this difficult time and thanks for helping me with Dominik when you can. I know I will need to depend on some of you in the future when I have to go away for work so I hope I'm doing right by my baby boy. The Guard allows me to support him and takes care of us both when we're sick, so I guess it's worth it.
In other news, I turned 29 on Mar 9th. I can't believe I am in my last year of 20's and then the BIG 30 hits. It just doesn't seem like I can possibly be that old? Where has the time gone? It's crazy how it flies by faster and faster as you get older. The good part about me aging though is I really feel like I'm wiser (just as the saying goes). I am able to forgive people who have hurt me and I am not so quick to judge others whom I consider to have made bad decisions or have a completely different lifestyle that I may not agree with. I like that about myself and I have even noticed that I can calmy talk to a person no matter how angry I am.
Ok, what else. I will be moving into my own home soon so Dom and I will have our privacy back and we will quit driving my mom and Doug crazy. No, we don't do that, but it's still nice to have your own privacy. If any of you are in town, you will have to visit and see the place. You're invited anytime!!!
Other than that, speech therapy and daycare seem to be helping with Dom's speech. He says more, mine, why, and bye really well along with the stuff he said before. Slowly, but surely he's coming along and he is one of the sweetest little boys ever. He gives his daycare friends and workers hugs as we leave and anytime my mom or Doug leaves he gives them hugs and kisses. He even blows kisses to the dead animals hanging on the wall before bed. He's getting more and more awesome as he grows up. Oh, and last measurements at his 2 yr check up are weight-25 lbs and height-34". The Dr. said his height is average for his age, but he's small weight wise. There's no issue with that, but he's a lean, mean fighting machine.
Anyhow, I will get some pics taken of him this weekend and post them up since I know that's the real reason you all look at my blog. =0)

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

WHY??

I'm not going to name any names in this instance, but today I have to question how people can be so cruel to those they claim to love? I'm not only talking about 1 person in my thoughts, but a couple different ones. I can't possibly explain how completely tired I am of always being the person to put out the effort whether it's for a relationship or a friendship. I don't know why it is so difficult for someone to be courteous enough to let you know how they're doing or send a quick reply to an email they received from me, but apparently it's extremely difficult and time consuming beyond my comprehension. It's not like I have all day, every day to get a hold of people and keep in touch, but I at least make a genuine effort.
Today I want to make a vow to myself that I will try my best to keep... I will no longer give my love, time and energy to those who don't appreciate it or return it. That saying nice people finish last has some truth behind it because we allow others to take us for granted and to get away with doing whatever they want because they know they will be forgiven for it later on. I will still forgive, but I will not forget and I won't allow myself to fall into that trap again. If I'm that important to people, they can make the effort to be a part of my life as well. I'm done with pain, tears and feeling sorry for myself. No More!! And thank you to my best friend Krista who has always been there through thick and thin and to ALL of my family. None of you have ever treated me the way I described above so thank you for that. I hope one day I can be here for you if any of you ever need anything.